A Journey in A First Step

I have been tired of crawling

My knees can feel a little bit pain now

My palms are burdened with my body

While my eyes are seeing inviting things out there

I have been sweat for trying hard to reach

But still they are so far for crawling one like me

A magnificent change must be done

The change like the big ones habit

They can stand their crawling tool, not just like me at all

They can even move in that position

How can they do that; while it’s really difficult for me?

But I have to apply my efforts

 

Let’s try by this little chair near me

My right hands can be put on it slowly this body weight is focused on it

It makes my right shoulder is lifted a bit

I can feel the left hand do as the right hand did

And my right leg is curved follow by the right leg

Wow…I have ever been in this position before

I know, I will be in good position in seconds

See… am standing now, I told you, I have ever been in this position before but I always got stuck, just stoned like this for seconds again not in minute

 

But now…I am tiring of crawling

I have to make a multitude difference

Come on legs…please give me steps

It’s alright then if it just one for once

It’s alright

I can accept that

Then later we can work together for making more steps, alright?

So now…please give me one

Please

I can’t stand of standing

It’s ok to start by left or right leg

But I feel that it’s going to be left first

I can feel it

Now, my left leg is a bit trembling, I can feel it

Then it’s raised for seconds and moved about ten centimeters forward

It’s shaken my body, I feel a huge splash on my face, makes me so surprised

Oh…I almost felt down

But I did it, I did it

It’s my first step

Oh…am so happy, sweet smile on my face

 

Reflected by Two Balls

These two balls are the reflection of me inside.

When I got squeezed to broken they must be full of water

And when I was so burdened I bet they will pour their water on earth

 

I realize that I’ve often been pained and tortured

Deep inside me, I don’t want to influence them

But how can I say…they are truly my representative

I can’t ignore it anymore

 

I have tried to camouflage what have beneath, but still I can’t lie

They are flood again.

Even, they are not just watered but getting swollen

 

Why, why am I always so mean to them?

Well, I think am not that mean, I think, it’s my destiny

 

But…thank God, there’s always balancing in this world

Because I realize, that all I can do is not just wet them but also give them joyful shine

I am so glad now, eventually I can balance myself

I am not just a dark cloud in the sky, but also a magnificent sun shine

Fortunately, this shine can be representatives also by these two balls

 

So, let’s just take this: these balls can be so floody sometime, but they also can be so shiny in another time.

That’s the balancing of my life

Encouraging a Friend with Lupus

I just got a call from my friend Daisy who is suffering from Lupus. Daisy seemed a little bit of depressed because of condition.

“I am waiting for the check up result. Doctor said that it will be completed on this Friday.”

“So, what do you feel?”

“I feel so afraid. What is going to be happen on me?

“You are afraid?” (I am asking to make sure bout how she feels and to give space for me to say what I think)

“Yes, I think it’s the biggest problem from me now. And I confuse that I’m really scared.

“Come on Daisy, you know something, couple of months ago, I saw a program on TV, actually it’s a special program about how people with Lupus climbed Mt. Everest. I am not sure if they can make it but the point is the spirit to keep on doing activity. So, the point is you have to do something, not just silence, have the spirit of doing or even creating something that you can see the achievement. I am sure it will encourage you to fight your illness.”

“I am going to think about it.”

“Please not just think, but do it. You will be happy of seeing something you created and it will take your mind away from your problem, right?

“I think so.”

“Then, please be happy. Think happily and do anything you like. Try to walk early in the morning.”

“But doctor said that I am prohibited to be tired.”

“Oh come on Daisy, am not asking you to walk till you tired, but walk for happiness. It means you enjoy of doing that no matter it’s only five minutes, but at least you have felt the fresh air and a bit of your adrenalin was pinched a bit. And be happy again, you won’t die tomorrow, please keep this in mind.”

“I like cooking but I am also forbidden for cooking due to my diet.”

“Then don’t cook, but think another activity you like. Write down as many as you like, and pick one or two of them and do enjoyably.

“Thanks Sue, I will keep all of your suggestions in my mind and promise to do it. Thanks pal.”

“Don’t mention Daisy darling, just be happy ok.”